Thanks to Ikin, i now have a new hobby. Watching movies.

Most recently genre watched - Horror &  thriller ; IT, Scream (1,2,3),  Whisper

Favorite spot - Alone in my room.

Upcoming (lol. Actually ‘outdated’) movie to watch :-

1) Genre : Love/Romance/Comedy - Now & Forever. Korean movie. Bought it for RM6. Second hand but Ori dvd.

2) Genre : Family/Comedy -

i) Honey, i blew up the kids

ii) Rowan Atkinson movie; Bean, Mr Bean’s holiday, Johnny English, Keeping Mum

iii) Dragonball evolution

3)  Genre : Horror / Thriller -

i) The Sitter

ii) The Slit-Mouthed woman

Hohohohohohoho. Have a great time everyone!

Do you hear me?
Talking to you
Across the water
Across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky
Oh my, baby I’m trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh

They don’t know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I’ll wait for you, I promise you I will

Lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we’re in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I’m sailing through the sea
To an island where we’ll meet
You’ll hear the music fill the air
I’ll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty, you’re all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we’re in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohhohhohhohh

Called you for the first time yesterday
Finally found the missing part of me
Felt so close but you were far away
Left me without anything to say

(CHORUS)
Now I’m speechless, over the edge
I’m just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit by this love bug again

(people chatting)

I can’t get your smile out of my mind
[I can't get you out of my mind]
I think about your eyes all the time
You’re beautiful but you don’t even try
(You don’t even, don’t even try)
Modesty is just so hard to find

(CHORUS)
Now I’m speechless, over the edge
I’m just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit by this love bug again

Kissed her for the first time yesterday
Everything I wished that it would be
Suddenly I forgot how to speak
Hopeless, breathless
Baby can’t you see?

Now I’m…

(Guitar solo)

YEAH, OH

Now I’m speechless, over the edge
I’m just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit by this love bug again
[ohhh]
Love Bug again
[woo!]

(people chatting)

Wooow!

Pressure these days!

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RESOLUTION 2009

Ok. Let’s make it simple. Below are my reso for this New Year:-

1. End of adjusting. Now it’s time for finding stability. Implementation and Kaizen (continuously improvement).
2. Understanding business thru reading, experience and communication.
3. Oppose work overload! - Hey, can’t I have at least half day of resting on public holidays?! To get fresh energy & mind and the speed for further work.
4. Information - Get it right. No hesitation. The clearer the better.
5. No whining please. Instead, find ways to reduce, solve or make it better.

Hehehe. Yesterday was the second time i did blood donation. The previous one was three years back (if not mistaken) when i was in college. Okayyy. Most people are afraid of this activity. But not me. I was looking forward for it! Haha.

I wanted to donate my blood because i hope my blood will save people from die of not enough blood. Cant help much people outside thru money, or energy. So at least, the blood will help the needy.

Yea, let me remark here before i forget, my blood type is B.

The transfusion takes 450ml blood. From what i understand, the nurse said that from 1 pack of blood, they will extract it to another 2 packs. 1 is for plasma. The other one is for platlet. She said we can donate again our blood after 3 months.

The experienced, hehe quite normal. First, fill in the form if you are first time donor. Then, a nurse will check ur weight and blood. Whether u pass or not to donate blood. Then, an interview. She’ll ask questions about ur health, history and current medicals and other questions that involved health. If u pass the interview, u’ll be given a small book specially for blood donor. Next time want to donate, just show the book. They will know. After that, lie on a bed and really to get blood sucked! ;P The fear part for me:- was when the nurse didnt found any veins on the hand. Lol. Maybe coz of the thick fat. Then comes matured nurse to save the day~ She found one and injected the needle into the skin to the vein. Aaaaauuuuuuuu………….She injected bius so that i wont feel anything after this when she used the big ermmm kindda needle also to the skin to transfer the blood to the blood pack. Thank god nothing happened. It took about 5 minutes to get the 450ml blood. The blood flow out quite fast. The nurse said it was a good sign. But she didnt explain why. Then, relax for few minutes to stabilize the body condition. I saw not far from my bed, was a guy holding a cloth inside it has ice to stop the blood from come out again coz the blood just cant stop! Poor him! Then, at the last of the activity, the donors were given a certificate and a meal.

The activity took place at mom’s office tower. They seldom held the blood donation event there and yesterday i got the chance to do so. Went there with my 18 year old brother. He was excited also to do the donation. But unfortunately, the interviewer didnt allow him because he’s having antibiotic because he’s not so well. If not, he’ll pass all the other questions and can proceed to do the donation. But he was happy too because at last, he knew what type of blood he is. Can u guess? Hehe.

Bare this in mind….

All that im going thru is a process of learning. Although seems tiring and suffering, till end, i’m the one who’ll get the benefits. Ya, ya. I get it. It’s for my own good. Seems like never ending work, even working on weekends, but hell, at least i HAVE work! Can force myself distract to other things than thinking of sad, regret moments. For the 1st time, i’m grateful to have such many work! Haha.

However, the disadvantage is that im getting less friends day by day. Who would want to have friends that can’t hang out together even for one day? Even two of my bestfriends less contact me nowdays. Maybe they just bored with me and better spend their  time with their boyfriend. Oh my! How pertetic i am. How lonely i am. Have staff around but can’t really socialize with them. They say, dun be too kind & friendly with the workers. Afraid they will step on our head. haih~ i don’t know what to think know. There is always limit in everything…

What can i say? I’m still in love with someone who i shudn’t felt in love with. I still hope he’ll change but i dun know how long can i hold this hope. Better for him to quick meet someone for his life. Although this will be really extremely hurt for me, but i’ll except it and will be really happy for him. For the good of both of us i guess. Dreaming and believing of getting someone that is really meant for me, but don’t know when will i meet him…. But in my heart, still thinking that i’m not good for anyone. Anyway, who wouldn’t want someone like me? Ok2. Such a lame thought. i get it. Not all i can have rite? Dreaming for prince charming but dream is just a dream. I’m living in a real world.

Life is bitter. Bitter is sweet. :’)

~ Supaya bibirmu kelihatan menawan, tuturlah kata-kata yang baik.

~ Supaya matamu cantik bersinar, lihatlah kebaikan yang ada pada orang lain.

~ Supaya bentuk badanmu langsing, kongsilah makananmu dengan mereka yang lapar.

~ Supaya rambutmu lembut mengurai, biarkan anak-anak membelainya sekali setiap hari.

~Supaya dirimu sentiasa berkeyakinan, hiduplah dengan ilmu dan engkau tidak akan keseorangan.

~Manusia perlu diperbaiki, diperbaharui, dipulih, ditebus dan diselamatkan; jangan pinggirkan sesiapa.

~ Ingat, jika engkau perlukan bantuan, engkau akan temuinya di hujung kedua-dua tanganmu.

~ Apabila engkau meningkat tua, engkau akan dapati yang engkau mempunyai dua tangan, satu untuk membantu dirimu, satu lagi untuk membantu orang lain.

-Puisi ciptaan Audrey Hepburn (Mastika September 2007)

Lalalala~ I’m happy right now. Coz i got the chance to remember back my interests during my past. I did had a great past time. Ok, maybe because i have entered the world of working, makes me forgot more and more of my interest. And maybe also because of the college life, makes me concentrate on other stuff untill i forgot more than one interesting hobbies i had. Duhhhh…..what a dull life i had during this past 3 years. I forgot i love to take care of babies, kittens, birds. I forgot i love to colour and draw until i’m not really good of drawing nowdays becoz i didn’t practice at all during these past 3 years. Duuuhhhh…. I had wasted my talent just like that. Am i? Hmmmm.. I also forgot that i loooove watching japanese dramas during secondary school. I like to hear when they speak. I enjoy their acting as well. The story line also funnny and creative. Oooohhh, i miss watching japanese dramas. Always don’t have time to watch the drama on tv. During college time, i watched korean series. Hmmmm thanks to amira. She with open hands will lend me the vcd boxes for me to watch at home whenever i have free time. That girl is so obsessed with korean actor until i get influenced by her also. But ya, seriously, korean actors are cool and handsome. They have THE ’style’. Very cool style. Very handsome style. Haha. The actress not bad also. They are beautiful and cute. I Like Jang Na Ra. She’s cute. Aaaaaaaa……. I miss all those stuff! Gimme time. I want free time for my own. :’C

Babies, there’s no baby for me to take care of for this past few years. I do feel empty without doing that. Can u imagine, being in the situation of always have to took care of baby since i was small. Beginning from younger brother under me, till the tenth sibling! Beside mother, i’m the one most of the time took care of my siblings when they were babies. How small, cute and fragile they were. Baby, also one wonderous creation created by god. They always makes us happy although they don’t do anything. haha. The improvement from time to time also give wonders to us. From, just lie down, to crawling, to stand and walking. From just crying, to a little talk, to very talkative kid. haha. From teethless, drink only mom’s milk, to a tooth, 2 teeth, up and down, many2 teeth till can eat food like we do. What a progress! And i can see the progress with my own eyes, it’s more than anything! Worth than anything i think.

During my childhood, I enjoy taking care of kittens. There was one day, a kitten out of sudden appeared infront of our house door. It was miawing continuosly, until we open the door. Forget how, till that time, that kitten became part of the family. We called it ‘November’ coz it appeared infront of the door on early november. That kitten was so cute. It has greyish black color. The most cutest part of it was that, it will scratch, scratch, scratch and scratch at the front window every early morning, waiting to play with us. It liked to jump. November will first moved it tail, look carefully the thin rope we used to play with it and jumped, jumped and jumped happily to catch the rope. Haha. It will automatically go outside to pee or do other thing related to it. We didn’t even have to teach it. November sure was a smart kitten. Loveable kitten. Oooohoo…..However, the happiness won’t last forever, till end of november, one day, we didn’t heard it scratch the window….  We were worried. I thought anything might happened to november. We planned to search for it. Once we opened the front door, we were shocked! There, lie the most fragile creation that once had brighten the family member. There it lie, helplessly, no movement at all. November was dead!!! :’[ Maybe was killed by other cat or dog. We were all felt really sad at that time. And ya, we buried it after that. With all the happy memories we had with the kitten. November, cheeky kitten that brighten our lives. Thank you for the memories, for the lovely and great2 time we had together. You are one amazing little kitten and we still remember you!

v Believing in your own self, your religion, your opinion, your style, your voice, your look, your brain, everything! The biggest enemy of all enemy IS yourself. So be proud and be firm of whom you are!

v Stop whining. Stop let people sympathize you. It will kill you & make you weak. Act quickly to solve problems. Find solutions through MANY ways. Don’t waste time.

v Speak up Asma’! Don’t deny something that is right. Don’t follow other people. Believe in what you think is right & follow the path of Islam. Say “NO” to something that is wrong and tell them nicely.

v Lose weight for 5-10 kilos this year. 1 month at least 1 kg. Eat less rice. Seek time to do exercising.

v Read books at least once a week. Don’t care whether it’s about motivational, inspire, business, investment, strategy, IT, cars, services, customers, religious, politics, Malaysi or other country. As long as I read books, at least once a month. I want to improve myself, to be confidence in talking with others, to have idea when talking, to understand their matter and give suggestions.

v Organize my work, my life, MYSELF, every week. That include my room, my time (follow the schedule that I made), my workplace, my car, my work bag, my handbag, my clothes, my hygiene, all personal belongings, etc etc.

v Be a cheerful and active person everyday! Don’t afraid to be yourself and show it to people around you. You are who you are. Be courageous. Be brave. Be creative. Be yourself. Don’t let people let you down. Accept comments and critics with open heart and mind. Be grateful. Always.

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>Asma’ Ridzuan’s resolutions for the year 2008

-Let them be TRUE & ACCOMPLISHED-